What am I missing?

Do you ever get the feeling that life is passing you by, and that you are missing out on opportunities that you should have had that would change your life forever?

I Need A Job!

It's getting very close to a crisis situation with money and me. I have been looking and looking, and what started out as a very promising week job-wise is ending as a big disappointment. I had an interview on Monday at The Limited in the mall by my house. I thought I had a really good shot at that job, although it is slightly down on my payscale it was SOME money. But they said I would hear by the end of the week, and they haven't phoned. I would love to say that I am super disappointed, and part of me is. But if I can find something a little more respectable where I can get paid a little more, I would prefer to have that job. I am afraid that the minute I say yes to them something else will work out and then I would have to back out.

I had another interview on Monday for a really fun job. I would pretend to be sick and the UW medical students would ask me questions about what I have and try to diagnose my "illness". I think it would be fun, and it pays $15 an hour which is sweet. They will put me on their list, but the hours aren't regular and they wouldn't call me until August for the first slot anyway, so it isn't immediate money.

I am enjoying the new cable internet we have, trying to catch up on even more pop culture that I have missed in my year abroad. Plus, my computer is getting all these fancy updates now. (It hasn't been connected for two years to the internet, so now I am getting all the software upgrades and stuff.)

So, that's about where I am at. I am socially starved, however. I only know one person outside of the people in my house, and she is my very busy cousin who has a life of her own. We have been able to get together a few times, and had a lot of fun, but with me not having a job OR friends sometimes I am pulling my hair out wanting to leave the house but having nowhere to go. It will all take time, and even though I am starting to feel the money crunch I still have a very casual attitude towards becoming employed. I think I am still adjusting, which shouldn't be so much of a shock since I have been back 6 weeks from 8 months of an intense experience. I'll just have to take my time.

INTERNET!

Ahah! We have internet now! Finally, we have cable internet at the house. No more dial-up, no more asking permission from Leah. We have wireless throughout the whole house. However, I don't have a wireless card so I currently have to connect by cable. But who cares? We have internet!

Better Late Than Never

I am back online, finally. Our cable internet isn't hooked up yet and we are using AOL prepaid minutes on my sister's computer for now.

When I came home from India, everything was uprooted. I was only in Madison for 3 days and then I headed off to Minneapolis for graduation, which was absolutely insane since I had been home less than a week. I came back from the Cities only to help my family move from our cramped little two bedroom apartment on the eastside to the 4 bedroom house on the westside that my family is sharing with my aunt. And then, I promptly spent two weeks sitting on my butt. Last week, the first lazy week, I wanted to do nothing simply because I hadn't done that since I had gotten back from my India adventure, and I told myself that this week I would get a job.

Well, that didn't exactly pan out, and although I do seem to have some employment options, I am really worried at what my prospects will be considering I have no real work experience and I am not exactly out to start a career at this point. I am just hoping to find something that isn't too boring which will bring in some income while I try to figure out how grad school is gonna work. I think part of me feels like I will be going back to India sometime soon, which is pretty outrageous. But I am so aimless here, sometimes I feel like it would be easier to cope if I could easily identify myself with a role or something. Anyway, more later.